Tearing

Sometimes you miss someone so much it hurts.
You could feel the 'tearing'.
It bleeds through your eyes
and every night falls on your pillows.

Pillows
The only witness to tears and cries
Who hears the shouts and screams
Of nightmares turned to reality
Of reality becoming memories

Memories of you and me
Colorful now turned gray
Its hard to learn to love
But harder to unlearn loving you

Loving
You were easy to love
Like each rising of the sun
As definite as the waves

Waves
Of pent up emotions
Anger, sadness and rage
Crashing, washing away the illusion

Illusions
Like the pictures in my head
Of you smiling again
Laughing, loving and whole
A made up you by my side.

- i wish for nights like this to be shorter. I wish for morning to come faster. For the nightmares to stop like the tears in my eyes and the screaming. I'm still getting over the thought that some people are never gonna come back. That what was once a reality has now become a memory. Sometimes you miss someone so much it hurts. I can feel the tearing again.

Love is Easy (8/19/14)

Just got a call today.
She's saying she's not ok,
saying that she gave it a try.
And it ain't just working this time.
She's saying goodbye.
She's saying goodbye.

You said loving is just easy.
But it ain't easy as it looks.
Then You came and showed me how.
when you laid your life down.

You make loving look so easy.
When you spread your arms for me.
And took the nails on your hands and feet.
You made loving look so easy,
When You loved me.
When You loved me.

Just got a text today.
He's saying he's not alright.
Saying sorry for a hundreth time,
and it won't happen the next time.
Should I give it a chance?
Should I give it a chance?

You said forgiving is just easy.
But it ain't easy as it sounds.
Then You came and told me how.
when you laid your life down.

You make forgiving sound so easy.
When you cried out on Calvary.
And took all my sins from me.
You made forgiving sound so easy,
When You forgave me.
When You forgave me.