Fire and Home

Where do I belong?
I have searched high and low.
I have been to many places
But I have been more lost than found

Then You came
Like a fire in my camp
That is where I should be
Right beside your light and warmth
You have been the fire that burns in my heart.

There's no place I would rather be
This life may come and go
Right beside You is where I belong
Right where You are is where I should be

Where do I go from here?
I have wandered near and far
I have met many faces
But I have lost more than found

Then you came
Like a map towards home
Thats where I should be
Right beside your lamp and guide
You have been the home I have waited to find

You came and I come undone
Now im at the end of me
Where You and I will begin
Finally Forever begins.

I FOUND ME- Original Composition

Song Story:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FXB01e_k_Wg

I've been trying hard to find
The missing piece of me
In their eyes
In their smile
Just to find who I am

I have worked hard to define
The meaning of this life
In their praise and applause
Just to hear who I am

But who am I?
I cant recognize these sad eyes
I've lost more than found
Who I really am till now

When I found You
I found me
Behind my insecurities
You called me precious than rubies

I have You
I have peace
Behind my fears and doubts
You called me fearless and worthy
The more I found You
I found me

For who you are
Is who I am
Not What I did
But what You've done
What I lost in You
Forever I am found
In You I am found

Meet Me Halfway

They say love is sweeter when the time is right. 
Maybe that's why i never tasted that kind of love 
because I've never got the timing right.

They say you have to also get the person also right 
and you'll find your happily ever after. 

Maybe that's why all i've got was a 'once a upon a time' because i chose the wrong person to love the first time.

I heard a lover say about the one he loves,
'Where shall we meet?'
And she said to him,
Meet me halfway.

Down the trail where our paths meet
where the time is right and ripe.
Where you and i are the same,
And where heaven and earth collide

As lovers meet eye to eye

If only you would realize
from what i have received 
From what was revealed
If only you could decide

Love is sweeter when it is right
the right time
The right reasons
The right place
And the right person

If only you would realize

You and i might pass us by 
And we will miss our time
I don't want to miss u this time.

Tearing

Sometimes you miss someone so much it hurts.
You could feel the 'tearing'.
It bleeds through your eyes
and every night falls on your pillows.

Pillows
The only witness to tears and cries
Who hears the shouts and screams
Of nightmares turned to reality
Of reality becoming memories

Memories of you and me
Colorful now turned gray
Its hard to learn to love
But harder to unlearn loving you

Loving
You were easy to love
Like each rising of the sun
As definite as the waves

Waves
Of pent up emotions
Anger, sadness and rage
Crashing, washing away the illusion

Illusions
Like the pictures in my head
Of you smiling again
Laughing, loving and whole
A made up you by my side.

- i wish for nights like this to be shorter. I wish for morning to come faster. For the nightmares to stop like the tears in my eyes and the screaming. I'm still getting over the thought that some people are never gonna come back. That what was once a reality has now become a memory. Sometimes you miss someone so much it hurts. I can feel the tearing again.

Pagkaun sa Kalag na Gigutom

Here is my Bisaya Poetry.

Walay lami ang pagkaun nimo kung walay kan-on,
Nganong dili man ing-ana ang sa imong Espiritu intawon?

Dapat murag Pamahaw, Paniudto ug Panihapun ang pulong sa Ginoo,
Ayaw gyud daginuton!

Kay basig tambok ug dako imong lawas,
Gamay ug niwang man diay sa sulod!

Hala pagkaun na sa Kan-on na Iyahang Pulong,
Ayaw Hulat na imong lawas buhi ug kusgan,
Pero imong kalag diay namatay na kay nagut-man.

English Translation:

Food is tasteless and not satisfying without Rice,
Why isn't it like that with our Spiritual Life?

It should be like Breakfast, Lunch and Dinner with the Word of God,
Don't make it thrifty!

For you might be fat and big in body,
But small and petite in the inside no one can see!

Come now eat the rice of His Word,
Don't wait for your body be alive and strong,
But your body has been dead with hunger all along.

Seen and posted: https://angelicamarasigan89.blogspot.com/2016/05/pagkaun-sa-kalag-na-gigutom.html

Tula Para sa Nangungulila

Missing someone(s) right now. So I'll write right now.

Di mo man ako pansinin,
Ibaliwala ang pagsuyo at pagtingin,
Basta huwag mo laging kalimutan,
Ikaw ay nasa aking mga panalangin.

Di kita tatantanan o bibitawan,
Makita ko lang ang inaasam na pagbabago.
Mawala na ang inyong lumang pagkatao,
At maghari ang Buhay ni Kristo!

Ngayong araw, ikaw ay nasa aking mga dasal,
Alam mo man o Hindi,
Ako'y nananabik para sa iyo.
Hanggang sa makita kang muli.

Sa aking harap at sa iyong tabi.

Seen and posted in: https://angelicamarasigan89.blogspot.com/2016/05/tula-sa-nangungulila.html

Ngiti: Sa Hangin

Credits: collab with Pluma't Papel
BTW: wrote this with Jesus in mind. I'll just make it clear. Its raining. I love the rain. The wind. Like love. Esp Gods love. Like a storm. Like the wind. To be looked upon with Love, to be known. By Him alone. But poetry can be subjective. Think what u want.


Nung una mong nasilayan
Ang aking mga mata
Ikaw ay nagulat at namangha.

Dahil di mo akalain na,
Ikaw ay tatawagin
Ng aking lihim na pagtingin.

Nang una mong nakita
Ang aking ngiti
Na para sa iyo lang ikinukubli
Ikaw ay napahinto sandali

Sinuklian mo ang aking ngiti
Na mas tumatamis sa iyong mga labi.

Nung una mong narinig
Na pangalan mo ay sambitin
Ikaw ay nahinto at napailing.

Dahil di mo akalaing
Makikilala at matatandaan
Ang bawat letra ng iyong pgkakilanlan

At unti unting lumapit
Distansya ay tinawid
Ng ating mga tingin at mga ngiti
Na tila ngdadala skin sa langit

Para kang bagyo
Inilipad na palayo
Ang mga alinlangan ko sa kahapon
At pinawi ang kirot ng ngayon

Ngunit lilipas lang ba itong pagtingin?
O madadala ito ng hangin?
Bagyong malakas ang hampas
Sa agilang lumilipad ng mataas.

Maari bang ang hangin ang magdadala
Upang sa ganitoy maipapakita
Na ang kahapon ay may kasalukuyan
At ang bukas patungong walang hanggan.

Unfriend

Don't you worry
I won't bother you anymore with my stories
I'm content with the 4 years worth of memories
But they might stay even how i wish them to fade

Don't worry
I won't bore you with my words
I'm happy with your hand written promises u swore
But never meant to keep.
I'll hold on to them still

Every bit of me
I gave to you
Every piece of you
Was a part of me

But don't you worry
You won't hear from me anymore
Not a beep
Not a word
Like i never came to your life at all
Like the pictures never existed
Like the songs were never played
Like every memory fades
Like the day i saw the words
"Unfriend"

Pictures in my head

Pictures in my head
Old faces in another time and self
Trapped in fading photographs
Of old memories in my past

Words written in my heart
Old sentiments of another time and life
Caged in paper and ink
Of old promises of yesteryears

It was a good life
Of a once a upon a time
But I'm ready to turn the page
I'm finally saying farewell

Thank you
For the good times and sleepless nights
Won't forget every tear and smile
Like a movie on replay on my mind

Thank you
For the sweet memories and sad melodies
Won't forget every single part
Like a song on repeat in my heart

But my tomorrow is coming
I've been waisting my today
I'm saying goodbye to yesterday.

Shell

I saw you cross the street
One look I knew its you
Same eyes
Same smile
But a shell of someone I used to know

I saw coldness in your eyes
Eyes that once shined so bright
Smile that used to radiate
But now a shadow of your former self

I felt numbness in your embrace
Heart so dead I don't hear a single beat
Only Ere Silence so deafening to my ear
None of the beautiful sonnet you used to be

So I let go of your fragile frame
Saw nothing of the flower I used to be amazed
You had the same eyes
You had the same smile
Even the same name
But a shell of somebody I used to know
A shell so empty and hollow.

Where would I be?

Where would I be?

Where would I be?

If the Son has not set me free?

What do I have?

If I don’t have God’s only Son?

Let this new song sing,

As I count my tears and blessings.

Oh! What would life be?

If I am not with Thee, Jesus.

I have tried to satisfy,

The cravings of my soul.

I have sought but not have found,

The one thing that’ll make me whole.

Who would I be?

If the Son did not saved me?

What would I become?

If God did not gave His only Son.

Let this new praise arise,

As I find peace by your side.

Oh! What would life be?

If you are not for me, Jesus.

Where would I be?

What do I have?

Who would I be?

What would I become?

If it’s not for all that you've done, Jesus.

Thank you for all that you've done.

You (a poem of waiting and writing)

You
Where are you?
Will we be set apart by kilometers or sea?
Will you be just beyond my thoughts and dreams?
Know that I am here.

You
Whoever you are
Will you be among the vast crowd of the faithful?
Will I see you trailblazing God's way?
Know that I am right here running the same race.

You
What would be your name?
Will it be as fragrant as a rose?
Will it be like the sweetness of honey?
Know that I am excited to say it finally.

You
What would your laugh sound?
Will it be a catchy tune when it rings?
Will it be as refreshing as long awaited rain?
Know I am longing to hear it with my own ears.

You
What would be the color of your eyes?
Will it be like diamonds and jewels?
Will I be captivated when they sparkle?
Know that I am excited to meet thine eyes with mine.

You
Whom i've never seen
Whom i've never heard
Whom my mind have never conceived
I am already enamored with thee!

You
Whom I've seen only in Jesus
Whom I've heard of only from His sweet Word and revelation
Whom I've thought of only in prayer and intercession

If wat I've felt for you now fades away,
With distance and time,
it just revealed its truenes and God's design.

But if it is truly worthy and divine,
It wil over come the years were apart.
This revelation grows and deepens
What truly belongs in my heart

You
Wherever you might be,
Whoever you are
Whenever you will come
By Gods revelation and will
Know that I am just here

Poetry for the Weary

When my head starts to throb,
my eyes sting from the long hours of reading and writing,
I am tempted to stop.

My hands would shake,
my heart grows heavy,
my flesh yearns and I utter to God,
'I am tired Lord!'
and would wish I didn't just said those words.

For I do not have the right to say those words,
when all I have done is obey and follow His lead.
He already shouted an answer to my plea:
'it is finished!'

I saw the wave,
It tossed and turned the boat and it's passengers hearts.
They cried out to the Sleeping Saviour,
'Do you not care if we perish?'
Oh how it reflects you and me.

Then He awakens and raises His hands,
the storm calms.
They were amazed!
Then He finally said, 'Oh you of little faith!'

'Come to me,
I am your strength you who are weak.
Come to me,
I am your righteousness to those who sin.'

'Come to me,
I am all that you need.
To Satisfy what the world could never meet.'

'Come to me,
and I will come to thee,
Oh! you who are tired and weary!
I am your rest and your safety!'
#matthew11:28
#wearyandtired
#findrestinJesus

Cause and Effect

You have this effect on me,
When I catch myself thinking of you.
Your'e like a sweet melody,
Words just seem to come with rhythm and rhyme.
Why do you have this effect on me?

You have this effect on me,
When I look at you looking at me.
It's like your the only one I see.
The crowd just seems to disappear.
Why do you have this effect on me?

You have this effect in me,
When you are talking to me.
Its like there's no one I could hear,
The other voices seems to deafen from my ear.
Why do you have this effect on me?

You have this effect in me,
When your hand shakes mine.
Feelings arise which I can never deny,
The emotions you have awakened inside.
Why do you have this effect on me?

This cause and effect.
I've had this from the start.
Some might call this the 'spark'.
And I still wonder until now,
Why do you have this effect on me?

But as I walk away from all of this,
To find in God the rest and peace.
And put my awakened heart back to sleep.

I ask out of curiosity.
Do I have the same effect on you,
As you have the same effect on me?
Maybe not. Maybe not.